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Friday, June 27, 2008

;2:56 AM

Dear Viewer,
Last day of the school. I had a big headache today. But I just don't know why?

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

;8:09 AM

Dear viewer,
eyes pain and then it connect to my nerve and my head pain. Miss koh was walking to and fro and I wasn't paying attention at all. Miss lim ask us to come up to draw the thing and then daphne ask me where the line suppose to go and I told her the wrong answer. WHY? PHYSIC? I just can't understand.
Principal Dialogue. We stay in the 2nd floor, don't know what the place is called. Mrs mattew , principal and Mrs kooh was inside. Headache and Headache.
Went for Science-physic practical. Oh NO! THis is no good.
We went home after practical and Daphne come to my house to do F&N coursework.

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Tuesday, June 24, 2008

;7:59 AM

Dear viewer,

Yesterday post was so short, not because I didn't finish writing, it's because I forget about the event that have happen in school. Zulaikha and I had decide to do CIP on sat on the Channel NEWASIA tv, tour guide on yellow ribbon and green ribbon. Is it fun? I was wondering. I have CCA today. I was damn tired today. Shoulder pain and feel a bit that I am going to be sick.
I AM SCARED OF THE F&N COURSEWORK B.
I'm so angry.During history, I pass my CIP thing to miss koh, then she just threw it on the other side. WAH. MY CIP PAPER. I don't know will it gone missing or not for the action that she have did.

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Monday, June 23, 2008

;7:56 AM

Dear Viewer,
School reopen. I went to school as usual, taking 155 to school. I was a bit tired. I saw Jia ying in the bus. It's really so coincidence. In class, Miss Koh was talking about the CIP so I decide to join the CIP cause it is 8 hours. After school, Zulaikha and I went to find Miss KOH. Miss Koh was super late. Tiffany they all, was waiting downstair for so long and getting a bit impatient. So, after Miss koh have came, we wrote our contact number and name on the sheets of paper before we went off. Weilin, Zulaikha and I went to the popular and Zuliakha was finding stuff to buy.
So, Weilin and I decide to go first. We went to the library to close our CIP. 34 hours for me. Next, weilin and I went to the comics connection and look at the Detective Conan, More than words to look at something and finally we reached the bus stop. I saw Junrong and shenyan and some of their classmates at the bus stop. Too much of the coincidence for today.
Bus 142 came first, so I board 238 later on. Junrong was on the bus and I was talking to him and saw his textbooks so indifferent from mine.

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Friday, June 20, 2008

;5:46 AM

Dear viewer,
In the morning, I went to the interchange to meet Zulaikha to pass her some stuff. In the afternoon, I went out with XueYing to repair my phone. I was so surprise that there isn't a need for me to wait for one week to get back my phone. SO yea, Pl EASE DO NOT SMS DURING THIS WEEK CAUSE MY PHONE IS SENT FOR REPAIRMEN.
Just thought of Firdaus question. Which word do you find it difficult to say. 1) I love You 2) Sorry 3) Help ME.
For me, it is Help me. A kind of feeling inside me, which I don't know how to express and hate to express, so I don't ask people for help because I do not want to feel the awkwardness inside me.
So yea. I have this accomplishment inside me. I am left with SS, History and F&N homework left.

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Wednesday, June 18, 2008

;7:33 AM

Dear Viewer,
Today I went to school for CCA again. I meet Zulaikha at 8.30 and we went to school together. She sit in the canteen for 3hours doing her homework while I went for my CCA. Again, the same thing happen, I walk pass the class and saw their window all close but there were student inside and the teacher in whites.
I called tiffany to come up quickly and collect our instrument.
Next, we have our CCA at the second floor. Anna keep disturbing me. I was so fed up with her behaviour. She keep using her finger nail to hit me and finally my temper burst again. I twist her hand and I hit her hard on her hand. Then I was there spouting nonsense and Tiffany seem to be quite surprise cause I was using scolding anna halfway suddenly talked about, I am not interested in girl, so stop trying to touch me and I even called anna * Si lesbian*. I can't believe when my temper flare up, it is like that. Great men. This is me.

* The past of my shadow is back* Great!

Next, we have our break, I went to the 7 eleven to buy small portion pizza to eat. After that we went back to have our CCA. After CCA, i left the room with tiffany and anna and I saw Miss Wong on the phone.

The three of us went to the canteen to find Zulaikha. Zulaikha and me went to long john sliver and eat, library to use the toilet and returning books and look at shoes, perfumes and I even have my foot step into the Undergarments stall. Done and Home.

* For He who I desire*

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Tuesday, June 17, 2008

;7:12 AM

Dear Viewer,

I was suppose to meet mushuang in school at 9 but she was late. So i decide to take 238 first. My mood was spoil by some idiot again. There was this women, who board the bus and seem to be very rush behaviour. I was in front of her at first and then she walk swiftly and U-turn to walk in front of me. The bus started to move and I was still behind her, holding on to the handle. That women just stop abruptly and turn around push my hand away and went for the sit. HELLO MADAM. If you are in a rush, should not you at least quickly find a seat in front instead of paused like some idiot and the next moment turn behind to push my hand away for one sitting. If you scared that you will fall, then in the first place you should not have try to overtake me. STUPID WOMEN. She even act as if nothing has happen. Asinine people.

I went to the back and have a seat. I was swearing and cursing the women. So uncouth and ill bred. What kind of Singaporean she is representing.

I reached by 10 and in the first place I wanted to go up but decide not to go up because I saw joey sitting all alone there. So I decide to join her for a while. At first she want to go to the art room and do art but the teacher have something on, so pathetic girl sitting in the canteen all along doing her english tuition homework. I was trying to read the Chinese news paper that I have brought earlier but I gave up halfway. There is no way for me to start liking chinese in such a short period of time.

Mushuang reached school at about 11. At about 1 or 2, we went down for our lunch. I was trying to communicate with the uncle selling mixed rice and I gave the wrong information. I was suppose to tell him plate rice and he thought taking away and prepare the Styrofoam. Then I told him clearly and he say so you want to here eh? Paiseh because of the wrong information, I just nodded.

We stay in school until about 4 plus before we went home.

There are moments when, even to the sober eye of Reason, the world of our sad humanity must assume the aspect of Hell.

* For he who I desire*

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Monday, June 16, 2008

;6:42 AM

Dear Viewer,

I went to school for Co-Curricular Activity. I was all alone walking to the classroom on the fourth floor to retrieve my file and my instrument. Know why I never mention what my CCA is because I abhor my CCA. When I turned my head, I saw this 5/3 classroom, a group of people inside and I saw a women sitting on a desk. At first I thought of ignoring who she is, but my burning curiosity prompt me to look at her menacingly. I was so shocked when the person turned out to be Miss Wong. So, I gradually go to the take my stuff and take out my phone to call Tiffany.

CCA is Stupid.

After CCA, Tiffany, Mushuang and I went to have our lunch. After lunch, Tiffany went home whereas the both of us went to study. We were in the chinese classroom because of the aircon. However, the aircon doesn't seem to be in the correct function so the expert Miss Ong was trying to fix the aircon and miracles does happen.

I visit the toilet a few times. I spotted a suspicious person outside my classroom and mushuang told me is valerie. My mind swirled to the vision, valerie sitting alone there, who and what is she doing down there and some thoughts even came to my mind and I was wondering why would she actually make a trip to the school. Well, after coming out of the toilet, I saw another person walking and this one I know, it's Xiulin. And why would xiulin be with valerie? So, mushuang called her and talk to her and I was just standing quite far behind, smiling and laughing to myself. This is interesting. After the conversation ends, I asked mushuang, * valerie , skin colour have a very big contrast*

So, after study, we went off to the KFC and have our dinner. Met the both girl again, I was behaving a bit weird. That little kids, STupid little kids, play and play can't he see that I am carrying some food and was trying to pass and still stand there like a idiot. My mood change, I was so angry. Can't the parents be more responsible by teaching their kids do not dawdle around.

I was not behaving in my old self.

* For he who I desire*

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Sunday, June 15, 2008

;6:21 AM

Dear reader,
It's sunday and time for some relaxation. I watched the tv for almost the whole day. There was some Liao zhai at channel 8, the king at channel U and charlie and the chocolate factory at channel 5. I was switching channel trying to watch all three at one goes. Exciting show are hard to resist.

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Friday, June 13, 2008

;6:16 AM

Dear Viewer,
These few day, I was thinking about what is really love called? And who do I really love. To reaffirm I am a perfectly normal person. Suddenly, just thought of the person. Urging to do well in exam. Thoughts of the first smile from the face, teaching me how to write and colour. P1, smile to me and was in the same chinese class, the only year. But I gave the irritating attitude. Why? I have no idea. I never learn to smile to people until I ponder on the smile on his face. Why is there a need to smile? Beats me too! Recalling in the same group as him during P5 Camp, I have never notice him so much. Neptune. I'm sitting near him, talking to him. Bad attitudes I gave him. So sorry. The Camp T-shirt , I wore it still.
Gradually, I grown this special feeling, Which I ddin't realise until recent. The only person who I urge to talk to, careful with my own words and languages, hoping for another the smile. Hope to capture the smile from the face into my memory.
Recently, in msn, trying to talk to him, no reply. Could be busy, but I didn't wait. There were times when he talk to me, I only talk a bit, how I wished I could find some topic to start of. He offer me chewing gum, I didn't take, Why? He's staying until very late tonight. He's always so busy. How I wished I could be in the same school as he is if only my mind could stop thinking of playing and focus on study.
It's never too late to try! I will changed for the sake of him! Just waiting for my birthday to come soon, wonder what will he be doing. Whether he's free or not.
No point keeping looking inside the shop of her aunt own, no use. He's not going to be there, never and ever. He hated in there.
I desire for him.

Okays, today events. I went out with Mr Ng Yen Chuan to study in the library. No, practically should be studying, but he dosen't seem to be focusing much, so , we end up in the cinema watching Incredible Hulk. Stupid Hulk. So noisy. I thought I would be deaf anytime. At first, he wanted to play arcade but I kind of don't feel like playing. The show, generally alright but I wasn't enjoying much because I am slacking. The one hour plus, I could have done other things. Make use of my time. Being slacking for english, it's time for me refilled with enthusiastic. For the sake of he who i desire to have. When I slack, I stop to think of him, why? Cause I know I have led him down by not working harder. You're super. But I'm such a loser.
Okays, by the time I board the bus, it's about 5. And guess what, I saw one of my PS classmates. Mano. O, He grew so much, so much taller and some piercing. Piercing somewhere near his chin. So many people changed. Nah, It's time for me to do some daring stuff, but he who I desire hold me back from doing so. I want good reputation.
But piercing look so cool. Look like a gangster. So cool.

Actually, I was suppose to go to anna house to do account but then end up she's not free. But luckily I'm not there, cause it is a waste of time. I will always end up doing only one or two question and she will went on to play her instrument and play neopets. Kind of distracting. I was also suppose to meet Firdaus out but in the end, i didn't sms him and choose to entertain mushuang first. I wanted to repaired my phone but I scared other people will not be able to connect to me. Just waiting for some surprise day, he will be the one smsing me instead of me smsing him.

In Fact to love someone is still give him/her your blessing. Watching from afar, waiting something miracles will happen. You need not to own the person, however, if you own the person, you may not have the same feeling as before. The feeling is gone forever and ever.

Just wondering what he will be working as when he grow up. If he's a doctor, I will be a nurse. If he's a lawyer, I will work as a secretary. If he's some businessman, I will study IT and work under his company. Whatever place he went, I will always be there.
And Yes. The SWAY song is freaking nice. Thanks daphne. Hahas.

*** He Who I Desire***

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Wednesday, June 11, 2008

;5:20 AM

Dear Viewer,
have anyone thought of how to be a successful person? Being a successful person you need to have determination and perseverance.
So, left with about one week or so to school start and I still have tons of homework not done. What am I thinking? 5 sets of ss, don't know how many set of history, still have english comprehension, maths ten years series, F&N coursework, poa 4 paper to do and and !!! Bio ten year series. I'm having phobia of homework soon but I just can't get it why some people just can finish all the homework.
Does it imply that I am stupid, lazy?
I was using my mouse, suddenly, I feel something sticky. The mouse thing melt.. ARRghh.. Disgusting..

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Friday, June 06, 2008

;5:56 AM

Dear Viewer,

Outing with Ps friend. Guess what. It's raining! Actually, we suppose to have six people on the outing but whye keat cannot so now we are left with 5 people. I meet joanna at about 12.30 at the tenth floor. We set off together to interchange. We were the first one to reach. We decide going to the mrt there and sit down. I suggest of wiping the umbrella with tissue cause it is too wet. Esther called to say she might be late. I thought she was on her way, in the mrt. So we decide going to the popular. We just take a look at the section on the CD and the jun rong called. We told her we are in the popluar and we quickly went down to find them. When we go down, we manage to see them from afar and both wearing jean , one dressed in black the other wore jacket. Jun rong and shengyen. We decide to go inside the mrt and wait for esther. To my surprise, I realise esther is still at home. AH!!

Okay, so we diall esther number and rushed her and guess what, she even forget to bring her EZ line card. Hahas. Then we use jun rong handphone to call esther until his handphone left on 1 bar of battery. Pathetic. So we used shenyan handphone. So big. okay. I even bring my storybook along too. I'm sure they thought I am crazy. Next, we decide to go to JU RONG first, not junrong. OKay. We was on the phone with esther while we were travelling in the mrt. We went to the end of the mrt while joanna was on the phone with esther. Quite scary walking down the alley, cause it is shaking. Finally we reached Yishun and esther board the train.

Finally we reached Jurong.

When took a lot of time discussing whether to go. KTV or POOL. We made up the decision and decide to go to the pool. It must be a lucky day cause they didn't check that we are not 18 yet. hahas. Usually they do.

We played at the pool. I am unable to take as much photo there cause still got other people down there. After pool, we decide going for lunch. We ate at the food court. Stupid food court. The food is lousy. Uncooked food, esther also complain about it.

Next, we went around, going to the arcade and then we wanted to take neoprint except for the guys cause they ran off to the arcade and play games. I disturb jun rong, stop him from playing the basketball thing. He was unhappy. So sorry. yea

In the end, we went to take neoprint. After that, we decide to watch movie. Wanted to watch kungfu panda and need to travel all the way to kallang. It's so far away and in the end we had no choice, we just decide to watch Indiana Jones. Junrong bought one set. Joanna, me and esther share one set, however they only drink , I eat. Shengyen seem like on diet like that.Hahas.

The movie was thrilling.

After movie, we decide to go for dinner. We went to the don't know is it some thai or korean place or what place to eat, forget the name of the place. I only drank orange sac. Just thought that I need to enrich myself with some vitamin C. hahas. And my handphone again , went wrongs. Black-outs again.!

Finally, we finished our journey and on our way home in the mrt. We travelled again. Esther was telling, this is the first time going out with us, she be the first one to go home. Hahas.

Then there was two lady in the mrt keep looking at us like not happy like that. Okay. By the time we reached interchange. Esther alight at yishun, shengyen at braddell and junrong meeting his friend at toapayoh interchange and me and joanna take bus home. Joanna was again talking about mrt sick. Hahas. I gotten a headache not because of mrt. It's because of my eyes. Too much exposure of looking and then cannot think properly and then talk rubbish in the mrt. Zzz.

Okay Finally we reached home and we take the lift together and say goodbye. ahhas.

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Tuesday, June 03, 2008

;5:53 AM

Dear Viewer,
History trip to Labrador there. I wasn't happy at all and was not enthusiastic I go to school as usual. Mother accompany me down then happen to see miss lim's mother. Then she ask, not already daylight, no need to scare, can go to school on my own. Nah. It wasn't because of that. Finally, my mother told her that it's because I can't see the number. Agrr. No need to tell people about it. Then she ask me why I don't want to wear spectacle. Then she ask my mother to go back and she bring me to the bus stop and help me look for the number. ARGG. It's so embarrassed. I reached interchange and meet zulaikha at the control station. We went to school together. Handphone not working well. Apologise if I didn't reply your sms. My handphone is currently announced as spoil. My handphone went black-outs. I use my gut feeling to type the message. The first part was quite alright but at the back, the word was wrong. Then yesterday, I sms my sister and then end up sending message to someone else which I don't know who it is.
We went there on the bus. I sit beside vanessa chew.
We went to the Labrador first. Went to see singapore naval base, where it was situated. Then there we lead to some sea. Miss Koh was explaining thing and I wasn't paying attention at all. I lack of something in me, my mood wasn't on the trip at all. Not feeling as excited as daphne they all. I saw they taking photo and etc. Neither do I feel the excitement to join in. Then everyone was trying to take miss koh photo. Why do I not want to join in? So, I didn't bother, just wander around on my own and look at the sea. Miss koh was on the topic of Port . I was looking at the port, I just wish, I was there working. Driving the ship around.
Then Anna wanted to take photo with miss koh. No one help her, so I help her take her handphone to take photo. AHha, Finally , first time in my life, I heard miss koh calling my name. Only five people brought their cap/hat there. Me, anna, Regina, Zulaikha and Gillian.
Only one 5/1 was there. Then mostly 5/2 and 5/3. I saw 5/2 all of them except me, walk together. 5/3 all separate, with their own friend.
Then we were on the bus. The bus pass by alexandra hospital. Then miss koh explain about it and then the bus bring us pass where Japanese use to keep comfort women at, now currently convert to some car shop.
Then I saw Bukit Timah CC. Miss KOh say she live here with her parents and told us her block is 16. If I didn't remember wrongly.
Next we went to somewhere near bukit timah, I think. Then we climb the hundred over step. Miss koh, Miss don't know what esther and anna, climb halfway and then went to have a sit. Lousy. Then all of us went to the very top. Then they wanted to take photo. I was quite reluctant to join. Trying to move away, but Li xin suddenly, called me to come over. zzz. Then they got a uncle to help us take photo. After that, they told the uncle to take photo together. Haix. Then daphne ask the uncle to run the step together. See who is the fittest. I was like. Huh. Then we ran down the step. Zulaikha first, I second. Don't know why, I was running the stair halfway, suddenly have this fear. Fear of falling over. Mind not very clear. Not tired. But I was not happy at all. then the teacher was asking me , fun? I just smile , yeah, yeah. I don't felt fun at all.
Then we went back. We went to Kranji Memorial Hall. Then, so many tombs. I have never seen before. Two president died during their presidential, was buried there and their tombs was far apart because of their religion.
Then we went to the top. So many tomb. Then miss koh give us a task, ask us to find two people in here. One by the name of PAPAYA and the other HEENAN. I was wondering how to spell HEENAN. and I thought it is spell as KEI sth . So I went searching for that. Anna wanted to ask miss koh but miss koh just told us to find out on our own. Then I was looking at those alphabetic. over hundred thousand on the wall. Then still have to find PAPAYA from the over hundred thousand of tombs again. I saw Zulaikha they all went to find the tomb first so I decide to wander off on my own and look at the wall. I think they found papaya. Miss koh say he is the youngest but I didn't bother to see what she have say about the papaya. I just continue searching. Then miss koh shout across to anna, telling her actually HEENAN is spell like that.I was like huh!!! I have to re find.
Then everyone went to the wall and search. Then suddenly, I saw them, all of them disappear. And miss koh voice on the other wall. I think they have found it. Forget it.
I went to find they all. I was walking all alone. Miss koh saw me and call me, Xue li have you found Heenan. Obviously I have not, if not I won't have come and join you all, where heenan is at where you are standing at. I was so angry but manage to chill down. I just shake my head. Then she say, heenan is here. I'm not stupid. Yeah.
After she explain finish. I went off to look at more wall. So many weird name. Tons and Tons. Just can't finish glancing through. It was drizzling. Anna wanted to take photo with me, but I was reluctant. Then miss koh and the other teacher came and started to talk about someone vandalise the wall. It does look like, who is the evil one? Then I walk off to the other side and look at the wall and anna and some other student went to sit down. 5/2 are more enthusiastic. All went round looking except anna. I walk alone to see the wall. I forget to go to the tomb. ARHH. Miss out.
Finally everything is over. We went back to school. Suppose to meet joey at the canteen and I wanted to go up to the classroom and take my books. After that, I came down , joey went to wash her hand and we were standing at the staircase somewhere near the canteen. Miss koh come down and saw us and then began to talk to us. She ask us whether we have enjoy ourself. Anna was complaining about the mosquito bites. Then she turn her attention to me, She should have enjoy herself. I just say ya. My foot la, do i look like have I enjoyed a bit at all. I wanted my handphone with me. All I wanted is my handphone. Hope it is working well. It spoil my whole day spirit. And there it might affect my thursday mood too!!.
Hand Phone!!!
I was at anna house. She ask me to open my neopet account to see how much money I have in the bank and I accidently let her see my password. Then she try to open my neopet, using my password to see. The worst is, I was about to go home, I was outside talking with her mother. I gotten my account hack is okay. It's okay if someone just went inside to see only. THe worst part is she even called me. I told her I am still outside her house, talking with your mother with joey. Then she came out of the house and told me, She go to my account again and the worst worst is!! She even have the audacity to say she send my neopets -LEE ZONG GENG into Neolodge. I Was like huh. YOu use my money in there to send the stupid neopets-lee zong gent to some neolodge. STILL Have the guts to say so!!. I was so angry men!!!!
I need to change my password and this may cause me to lose my beautiful background. outrageous men.
Then there was this person who suddenly add me in msn. He told me , don't know is I add him or he add him and then continue his rubbish. He say that his name is Joan, what the, A girl name. THen I went to friendster and check then I asked him, are you daphne friend. THen he say, yea, but now no longer due to something and then say you want to know me then it would be better if I don't listen to daphne descripition of him because both of them quarrel. STUPID LA> WHen did I ever say I wanted to kNow him. BLoody Hell. Waste of my time talking to some idiot!. Morever, he's still younger than me. 15 years old XIAO DIDI. Bloody hell. SHOO OFF!!

I'm certainly no victim in this. I don't want to come off as a sad sack; I pissed a lot of people off

I'll meet the raging of the skies, but not an angry father.

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Sunday, June 01, 2008

;6:24 AM

Dear viewer,

It's the first day of a new month. I finally finished my evaluation, just anyhow do. No time for that. History trip is on tuesday. Exciting though. But I'm more excited for thursday outing with PS friend. I wonder how we deal with the day and we are going to have dinner together. It's all so exciting. Pool or Bowling have to depend on the price. Save all we can.

I open my gmail and saw many spam. Then I went in to see what the spam is about and happen to enter to some illegal website.~ You know what I mean..

Daphne, I know you wanted to eat my spaghetti. Hahas.
Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not, and often times we call a man cold when is only sad.

Questions:1. What is life to me?
Something that cannot be renew and have to be treasure.

2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
I will go to RUSSIA.

3. What's your favorite thing to do?

To play as much as I can
4. Do you think money can buy happiness?

It is impossible.

5. If u have one dream to come true, what will it be?

To be a CSI

6. Do you believe u can survive without money?

In the past, people hunt to live, why not leii.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?

Lose my determination.

8. If you win $1 million, What would you do?